In the process, I am making friends with the words of Rich Mullins' song...
we are frail, we are fearfully and wonderfully made. forged in the fires of human passion, choking on the fumes of selfish rage. with these our hells and our heavens so few inches apart, we must be awfully small and not as strong as we think we are.
If you've heard that song, you know it's beautiful. And I just get it. Life, lately, has taught me that my hells and my heavens can be just inches apart. Abrupt moments of bad news, sorrow, or pain, followed on the heels by unexpected joy and provision. Heaven and hell on the same day. It's left me with a new understanding of the frailty and smallness of my own life. It is completely out of my hands to know how many hells or how many heavens I will see in one day, one week, or one lifetime.
But in that place where my head spins and my heart thumps, my eyes also fly open and before me, I see a beautiful collision...
the frailty of human flesh meeting the gentle grace of God.
confusion meeting compassion.
weakness met by the tender infusing of supernatural strength.
darkness clashing with light.
sin buried by the blood of the Lamb.
sin buried by the blood of the Lamb.
humanity coming face-to-face with the beauty of the Gospel--
"God demonstrates His own love for us in this: while we were still sinners, Christ died for us."
You were never meant to save yourself, so the Savior has come to you.
Amen!
So let it come. In my daily life, I learn the process of welcoming the beautiful collision...
In my weakness, Lord, meet me with a fresh awareness of your strength. In my frailty, Jesus, overwhelm me with your compassion for humanity. In my need, Lord, let me know how gracious and willing you are to provide. When I feel stuck in darkness, Lord, I wait for a collision of your light... where Frail meets Divine... and somehow, in your Sovereign grace and plan, I emerge a different girl.
Yes, fearfully and wonderfully made. Humble, grateful, waiting with eager expectation for you.
like you "just get" that song (great song, by the way), i "just get" this. but i think "i get" this in a way that acknowledges what could be, what i am not walking in. yet somehow i don't feel discouraged. in fact, the opposite. i feel very, very encouraged to let Him meet me more. just beautiful, bethany. thank you.
ReplyDeleteHeaven and hell in one day. . . So accurately put. And what a lovely soul you have that you'd walk with Jesus through both of them. And, I LOVE the picture!!!!!! Where did you find the pic of the butterfly? Thanks so much Beth!
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